Normal Is Not For Me

 I have spent the majority of my life wanting to be normal. No more. Normal is not good enough. A lifetime mental and emotional challenges and chronic medical conditions made me aspire to be normal. Healthy, happy and normal is not too much to ask. Is it? 

What is normal? Ask someone who has been subnormal for most of their lives. Someone who has been told by their doctors, councilors and teachers that they are outside of normal parameters. That the tests results were positive. A subnormal person knows from experience that this is not good news and is anything but positive. Confirming a diagnosis with scientific testing is a good thing. Hearing you have yet another chronic condition is not.

What is a chronic condition? It is a subnormal state of being that may or may not have an effective treatment, but for which there is no cure. Something you will have to deal with for the rest of your life and may also contribute to your demise. Something no one else you know has and sets you apart from all those normal people who will never understand.